Working in the summer

Working is good for you. Builds character, brings in the money, gives you something to do, keeps you fit(mentally and/or physically).

Been here a week, gonna be here for two more. All two of you that read my blog? Thanks. Tell your friends. I'm not boring, I just have no one to talk to. This isn't a screaming cry of emoness. This is boredness and wanting to talk with people from over the rainbow.

See ya guys around.

To the tune of "Stan" by Eminem

I never realized how crazy I was till I bought a CD and it was
Curtain Call, by Eminem and I thought "it's just entertainment, it don't mean nothing"
but then I had a listen, and one song in and I was trippin
Wondering just what happened to my brain as my eyes started waterin'
and I was thinking "damn these are the feelings I been missin"
It all brought up the painful shit, every word, every verse
Thinking bout the universe and what it's done to me
and how it's affected me and done shit to me.
I didn't think i was this fucked up but i was wrong
and all of it came up from just one song and all I can do is cry myself to sleep tonight...

Chorus: Elton John
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray,
put your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

Whenever I thought up my life right now
I never thought I'd be so down
and out of sorts with myself
This was unexpected
Who'd ever thought I'd feel so unprotected
from everything the world has to offer
I was almost a father but my baby died and
all I do now is cry into my pillow at night
wanting to scream out in fright
as i feel myself crushed beneath the weight of world on my shoulders.
Who'd ever thought I'd feel like this
I only have one wish and that's to not feel so bad
about the life I've had...

Chorus: Elton John
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray,
put your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

And then in two years I gotta go to school,
Before that I need to learn to work around the rules
so I can do better
But what I need now more than ever
is the people who love me so I can cry to them and maybe feel better
about myself, instead of leaving painful letters
about shit to strangers on the internet
I didn't think I'd be this pathetic
to cry about my feelings and shit to people I don't know
I don't even have any readers on this blog who care enough
to leave a comment, you fucking cunts
Fuck you and all your shit!
I have better shit to do than talk to no one about my problems.
If you had it your way you'd shot me yourself
so no one has to deal with my mental health
No more from you, you don't say nothing anyway
So i'm gonna go and maybe swing by Safe Way

Chorus: Dido
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray,
put your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

After reading shit I've said and writing out this rap
i realize that all my life is full of crap
but that don't mean that it gotta stay that way
all i have to do is try not to stray
off the path the gods have given me
and continue going towards the light and infinity
and beyond that is a good life for me and mine
I'll try to never fall off and lose my spine
cause that would mean I was broken,
but I'm not broken down, i'm just started smokin'
and from the ashes of that smoke will rise a phoenix
So I'll just go on so you can finally, with me, see it. Yea...

Chorus: Elton John
My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray,
put your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..