I'm so damn tired. Not that I haven't slept. No, I'm just very tired. I had another dream. I can't believe I had another dream about her. It was completely unprovoked!
It was a...nice dream. I almost believed it was real. I really did, that's probably the worst part. That my subconscious could make me feel happy to be with someone who pushed me away before I had a chance to fix myself. Whatever. I know I'm not obsessed now, not consciously...but I do know she's affecting me, in little ways now. Better than it was in the beginning, so I am getting better.
One day I will contact her, and tell her to her face just how shitty she's made me feel, then apologize because itw asn't her fault, that it was mine. Then I'll walk away because I wouldn't want to see her again lest I let her presence reduce me to a squirming mass of brainless stupidity.
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