Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Abuse
Don't hit your kids. Just don't fucking try it. This news post was going to be for plugging a few of my favorite webcomics. Now, after hearing the screams outside my window and seeing a father beat his daughter into the ground before shoving her into the car to take her to school, I know what today's topic is going to be about.
I was hit as a kid as a disciplinary measure. I'll tell you this, it never taught me crap. Just that violence makes people do what you want them to, because after I was hit I did what I was told, and then later I was hit again when I refused.
I don't know anyone who hits their kids now, don't know people whose parents hit them outside a little smack here and there. But beating your child into the ground? That's sickening. I called the cops on the bastard. Even a disciplinary attack that forces the kid into the ground and to scream so loud the whole damn neighborhood can hear is just unnecessary.
The house where this was from is full of drug dealers. They've even gotten more bold than they have in the past few years. Now there's at least 10 cars over there at a time and the place hasn't been stung just yet. It's disgusting. I sit on my porch and watch buyer after buyer after buyer go to the door, knock, slide some money beneath the door and then something slide back out. I've seen people without cars walk over with snacks already in hand before they buy their crap.
I'm tired of seeing lives ruined, I'm tired of fearing for my life and my mom doesn't care. She seems to think that to keep calling the cops will keep us safe. They've already yelled at her once to stop calling the cops, but she hasn't, neither have I. But at the border to mexico they can very easily find a way to get back at us. Somehow someway. But right now I think they're just building themselves up, and it's working. It needs to stop.
Make it stop.
I was hit as a kid as a disciplinary measure. I'll tell you this, it never taught me crap. Just that violence makes people do what you want them to, because after I was hit I did what I was told, and then later I was hit again when I refused.
I don't know anyone who hits their kids now, don't know people whose parents hit them outside a little smack here and there. But beating your child into the ground? That's sickening. I called the cops on the bastard. Even a disciplinary attack that forces the kid into the ground and to scream so loud the whole damn neighborhood can hear is just unnecessary.
The house where this was from is full of drug dealers. They've even gotten more bold than they have in the past few years. Now there's at least 10 cars over there at a time and the place hasn't been stung just yet. It's disgusting. I sit on my porch and watch buyer after buyer after buyer go to the door, knock, slide some money beneath the door and then something slide back out. I've seen people without cars walk over with snacks already in hand before they buy their crap.
I'm tired of seeing lives ruined, I'm tired of fearing for my life and my mom doesn't care. She seems to think that to keep calling the cops will keep us safe. They've already yelled at her once to stop calling the cops, but she hasn't, neither have I. But at the border to mexico they can very easily find a way to get back at us. Somehow someway. But right now I think they're just building themselves up, and it's working. It needs to stop.
Make it stop.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Adressing a Social Problem
Carolyn Arita
Dr. Wei, Yong-Kang
English 1301
01 December, 2009
The Overall Problem of Homophobia
Homosexuality has been made taboo in the past few centuries. People have been ‘legally’ murdered in cold blood because of their sexual orientation, or suspected orientation as is sometimes the case. It was once common practice, these attacks, for many such actions to be against African-Americans. It was also the same for someone who was of different faith, or for someone who chose not to adhere to a society’s ways specifically. Now, today, murder is rampant, and what little acceptance there is of the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, or Transgender(LGBT) community, it is met with spite and malice and hatred.
In the past ten years great strides have been made to urge acceptance of homosexuality. A few states have legalized gay marriage. President Barack Obama passed a bill condemning hate-crimes against LGBT people. However, despite these great strides towards true equality in America, many people have stood against these actions so vehemently they themselves have become the eye of scrutiny as well as heroes for their ventures. Such people are members of the Westboro Baptist Church led by Fred Phelps.
This church has been on the radar for many years now in reference to their any anti-gay, anti-American protests, holding such signs that say “God Hates Fags,” or “God Is Your Enemy.” They often use their own children as well, having them protest along side them despite the children really not understanding why they’re holding the signs other than the ‘fact’ that “God Hates Fag Enablers.” When you open their website you are shown their anti-semitic, anti-catholic, and anti-gay signs in a slideshow of pictures. Among these pictures is a paragraph meant to be an introduction to their website, as if to welcome you:
“Since 1955, Westboro Baptist Church (WBC) has taken forth the precious from the vile, and so is as the mouth of God (Jer. 15:19). In 1991, WBC took her ministry to the streets, conducting 41,226 over 34,000 peaceful demonstrations (to date) opposing the fag lifestyle of soul-damning, nation-destroying filth. In response, america bombed WBC; & burned WBC on 8-2-2008. God is america's enemy: 5,275 dead soldiers; $11 trillion+ in national debt. America crossed the line on June 26, 2003, when the Supreme Court (the conscience of the nation) ruled in Lawrence v. Texas that we must respect sodomy. WBC believes her gospel message to be this world's last hope.”
Even in schools homosexual children and teens are unprotected despite recently passed bills or already instated laws in that state regarding hate crimes against homosexuals. A recent example would be of a young man who was aware a group of teens planned to attack him and alerted several administrators and even his bus driver. No one helped him, or even batted an eye at his claims. He was attacked by the boys who used a metal pipe to beat him, but was saved from almost certain death by a neighbor who heard the commotion and came out wielding a shotgun. The attackers fled and the boy was taken to the hospital. He survived but is terrified and many parents feel betrayed by the school for allowing something like this to happen. A similar story takes place in Puerto Rico where, recently, an openly gay young man was found beheaded and partially burned. The police treated it as if the victim was not a victim at all, but rather because he was gay it was his own fault for getting killed. Human rights’ activists are appalled at how the case was being handled and many people in and outside of Puerto Rico are demanding an investigation of this man and to try the young mans murderer under the hate crime felony charges that should apply since President Obama passed the recent bill.
Education about homosexuals is almost non existent. Any reference to the LGBT community in history books is gone, which is a shame, because there are countless people in history who have made a difference in the world who were gay or lesbian. And if they didn’t make a world-wide difference, they still made an impact in American culture at the very least. Notable people are Divine, an American born actor who stared in almost all of openly gay director John Water’s films, most notably, in the film Hairspray. Another, possibly less remembered, but rather important person, is Oliver “Bill” Sipple. Sipple was former marine who saved President Gerald Ford from assassination in 1975. Bayard Rustin, organized of the civil rights march on Washington where Martin Luther King Jr. gave his “I Have A Dream” speech. These are only a few people in history who have made a difference, yet their sexual preference had nothing to do with what they accomplished in life.
In order to combat the rampant homophobia, children in middle school and high schools should be made aware that any stigma’s against homosexuality and homosexuals is not true. If you are molested by someone of the same sex that does not automatically make you gay; if you hear of a man who molested a young boy, that does not mean he is gay, and even if he was, there are also men who molest little girls, yet no one is crying out about how ‘evil’ heterosexuality is. AIDS is also not selective in its victims. Men and women, gay or straight, are able to contract the virus and die from it. Health classes should teach more about sex, even just a little more, to include homosexuality into the mix and assure students that just by being gay does not ensure you will contract AIDS, only reckless sex will ensure the contraction of any and every disease.
Parents should also be aware of what they do and say in front of their children. In a recent film titled “Prayers for Bobby” a mother comes to terms with why her son committed suicide and realizes that throughout his life and his coming out as homosexual she had made it increasingly hard on him because of her own homophobia and conservative ways. He relied on his mothers love and knew that without her acceptance he couldn’t really go on with all the doubts in his mind. She realized that all of her anti-gay speech drove him to kill himself. It is based on a true story and Bobby’s mother is still working in the LGBT community helping other families and teens who are struggling with acceptance of their sexuality and spreading awareness through special events.
The subject of the LGBT community in the media is strong. It is everywhere, it affects everyone because gay people are everywhere. They are in our schools as students and teachers. They are in our churches as members and as holy-men. They are in our court houses, our capitol buildings. Many people are hiding in the closet this very moment out of fear of the attacks they might receive. Many children and teens commit suicide every year because they are afraid of what their family might do or say to them. Because society in general, as a whole, has not fully accepted LGBT people into their midst even though they’ve been there since the dawn of time. Without these people we would be a very boring race of beings. A lot of our music, films, politics, religions would be boring and single-minded without some of these people who realized that thinking inside a box restricted a persons creativity and love. Without love this world is nothing, and love is the only thing LGBT people stand for, yet no one seems to understand what it entails and so continues the manipulation and defamation of human beings.
Work Cited
Andrew. "Same Sex Marriage In History: Same Sex Marriage". E-Not Alone. 11/21/09.
"Pederasty". The Truth Tree. 11/21/09.
Smith, Gwen. "Transgender Day of Remembrance". Transgender Day of Remembrance. 11/21/09.
Fred, Phelps. "Westboro Baptist Church Home Page". Westboro Baptist Church. 11/21/09
Morrow, Chris. "The People God Hates". CNN iReport. 11/21/09.
Dr. Wei, Yong-Kang
English 1301
01 December, 2009
The Overall Problem of Homophobia
Homosexuality has been made taboo in the past few centuries. People have been ‘legally’ murdered in cold blood because of their sexual orientation, or suspected orientation as is sometimes the case. It was once common practice, these attacks, for many such actions to be against African-Americans. It was also the same for someone who was of different faith, or for someone who chose not to adhere to a society’s ways specifically. Now, today, murder is rampant, and what little acceptance there is of the Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, or Transgender(LGBT) community, it is met with spite and malice and hatred.
In the past ten years great strides have been made to urge acceptance of homosexuality. A few states have legalized gay marriage. President Barack Obama passed a bill condemning hate-crimes against LGBT people. However, despite these great strides towards true equality in America, many people have stood against these actions so vehemently they themselves have become the eye of scrutiny as well as heroes for their ventures. Such people are members of the Westboro Baptist Church led by Fred Phelps.
This church has been on the radar for many years now in reference to their any anti-gay, anti-American protests, holding such signs that say “God Hates Fags,” or “God Is Your Enemy.” They often use their own children as well, having them protest along side them despite the children really not understanding why they’re holding the signs other than the ‘fact’ that “God Hates Fag Enablers.” When you open their website you are shown their anti-semitic, anti-catholic, and anti-gay signs in a slideshow of pictures. Among these pictures is a paragraph meant to be an introduction to their website, as if to welcome you:
“Since 1955, Westboro Baptist Church (WBC) has taken forth the precious from the vile, and so is as the mouth of God (Jer. 15:19). In 1991, WBC took her ministry to the streets, conducting 41,226 over 34,000 peaceful demonstrations (to date) opposing the fag lifestyle of soul-damning, nation-destroying filth. In response, america bombed WBC; & burned WBC on 8-2-2008. God is america's enemy: 5,275 dead soldiers; $11 trillion+ in national debt. America crossed the line on June 26, 2003, when the Supreme Court (the conscience of the nation) ruled in Lawrence v. Texas that we must respect sodomy. WBC believes her gospel message to be this world's last hope.”
Even in schools homosexual children and teens are unprotected despite recently passed bills or already instated laws in that state regarding hate crimes against homosexuals. A recent example would be of a young man who was aware a group of teens planned to attack him and alerted several administrators and even his bus driver. No one helped him, or even batted an eye at his claims. He was attacked by the boys who used a metal pipe to beat him, but was saved from almost certain death by a neighbor who heard the commotion and came out wielding a shotgun. The attackers fled and the boy was taken to the hospital. He survived but is terrified and many parents feel betrayed by the school for allowing something like this to happen. A similar story takes place in Puerto Rico where, recently, an openly gay young man was found beheaded and partially burned. The police treated it as if the victim was not a victim at all, but rather because he was gay it was his own fault for getting killed. Human rights’ activists are appalled at how the case was being handled and many people in and outside of Puerto Rico are demanding an investigation of this man and to try the young mans murderer under the hate crime felony charges that should apply since President Obama passed the recent bill.
Education about homosexuals is almost non existent. Any reference to the LGBT community in history books is gone, which is a shame, because there are countless people in history who have made a difference in the world who were gay or lesbian. And if they didn’t make a world-wide difference, they still made an impact in American culture at the very least. Notable people are Divine, an American born actor who stared in almost all of openly gay director John Water’s films, most notably, in the film Hairspray. Another, possibly less remembered, but rather important person, is Oliver “Bill” Sipple. Sipple was former marine who saved President Gerald Ford from assassination in 1975. Bayard Rustin, organized of the civil rights march on Washington where Martin Luther King Jr. gave his “I Have A Dream” speech. These are only a few people in history who have made a difference, yet their sexual preference had nothing to do with what they accomplished in life.
In order to combat the rampant homophobia, children in middle school and high schools should be made aware that any stigma’s against homosexuality and homosexuals is not true. If you are molested by someone of the same sex that does not automatically make you gay; if you hear of a man who molested a young boy, that does not mean he is gay, and even if he was, there are also men who molest little girls, yet no one is crying out about how ‘evil’ heterosexuality is. AIDS is also not selective in its victims. Men and women, gay or straight, are able to contract the virus and die from it. Health classes should teach more about sex, even just a little more, to include homosexuality into the mix and assure students that just by being gay does not ensure you will contract AIDS, only reckless sex will ensure the contraction of any and every disease.
Parents should also be aware of what they do and say in front of their children. In a recent film titled “Prayers for Bobby” a mother comes to terms with why her son committed suicide and realizes that throughout his life and his coming out as homosexual she had made it increasingly hard on him because of her own homophobia and conservative ways. He relied on his mothers love and knew that without her acceptance he couldn’t really go on with all the doubts in his mind. She realized that all of her anti-gay speech drove him to kill himself. It is based on a true story and Bobby’s mother is still working in the LGBT community helping other families and teens who are struggling with acceptance of their sexuality and spreading awareness through special events.
The subject of the LGBT community in the media is strong. It is everywhere, it affects everyone because gay people are everywhere. They are in our schools as students and teachers. They are in our churches as members and as holy-men. They are in our court houses, our capitol buildings. Many people are hiding in the closet this very moment out of fear of the attacks they might receive. Many children and teens commit suicide every year because they are afraid of what their family might do or say to them. Because society in general, as a whole, has not fully accepted LGBT people into their midst even though they’ve been there since the dawn of time. Without these people we would be a very boring race of beings. A lot of our music, films, politics, religions would be boring and single-minded without some of these people who realized that thinking inside a box restricted a persons creativity and love. Without love this world is nothing, and love is the only thing LGBT people stand for, yet no one seems to understand what it entails and so continues the manipulation and defamation of human beings.
Work Cited
Andrew. "Same Sex Marriage In History: Same Sex Marriage". E-Not Alone. 11/21/09
"Pederasty". The Truth Tree. 11/21/09
Smith, Gwen. "Transgender Day of Remembrance". Transgender Day of Remembrance. 11/21/09
Fred, Phelps. "Westboro Baptist Church Home Page". Westboro Baptist Church. 11/21/09
Morrow, Chris. "The People God Hates". CNN iReport. 11/21/09
Monday, November 23, 2009
Post on Topix
Some of the earliest 'marriages' were between men. The bible supports incest, slavery, and the subjugation of women. Jesus was a radical liberal, his father supported his deeds in spreading love and acceptance. Those that supported God and his views against Jesus, because people were as stupid then as they are now, the King had Jesus crucified. You could say Jesus sacrificed himself for homosexuals because Jesus was a man, a man with feelings and emotions and no matter who he loved, it was love.
Love is not a choice. I did not suddenly choose to love my girlfriend, nor did I choose to automatically love the baby she was suddenly carrying. That baby also would not have chosen to love us simply because we were its parents. I believe God took our son from us because he was teaching us something very valuable. Love needs to be found, this world was no place for a child of mine to be born into. And he was right.
Your children, or your children's children will be gay. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but they will be. The highest suicide rate in the United States is among gay teens. They are ravaged by guilt because bigots like the ones I see here are screaming from the rooftops. Their parents agree and do not see the lovely young man or woman their child is becoming or could become, and instead watch their child die. Parents who allow such disgusting actions should not be considered parents at all. They are abusers. They abused something sacred, something beautiful. The bible used to be something that people used to study life, spirituality. Now it is being used for something disgusting and horrid. I cannot believe a loving God could allow this after he sacrificed his own son to save you 'Christians'. And this is not just to Christians. This is to every organized religion that goes out of its way of spreading goodness and light to spreading hatred and death. Why strive to end the lives of those who could be great?
President Gerald Ford might have died in 1975 because a gay, former marine, Oliver "Bill" Sipple would not have been alive to push away the gun of an assassin in San Francisco.
The United States, Britain, and the other Allies might have lost World War II because Alan Turing, a gay British mathematician, would never have been born. Turing broke one of the Nazis' most important codes to help shorten the war.
African-Americans might have struggled longer before receiving civil rights because there would have been no Bayard Rustin, the gay man who organized the 1963 March on Washington. This the march where Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., made his famous "I Have a Dream" speech.
Do you see there? That is what we could have lost. How much more do you want to destroy? Because if you take away something as simple as the right to live then you might as well place every African American back in shackles, force every woman into the house and keep her there. You might as well kill yourself because we'd just be going back to the disgusting times that people lived through in the Bible, a time that we have strived for thousands of years to get past.
Love is not a choice. I did not suddenly choose to love my girlfriend, nor did I choose to automatically love the baby she was suddenly carrying. That baby also would not have chosen to love us simply because we were its parents. I believe God took our son from us because he was teaching us something very valuable. Love needs to be found, this world was no place for a child of mine to be born into. And he was right.
Your children, or your children's children will be gay. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but they will be. The highest suicide rate in the United States is among gay teens. They are ravaged by guilt because bigots like the ones I see here are screaming from the rooftops. Their parents agree and do not see the lovely young man or woman their child is becoming or could become, and instead watch their child die. Parents who allow such disgusting actions should not be considered parents at all. They are abusers. They abused something sacred, something beautiful. The bible used to be something that people used to study life, spirituality. Now it is being used for something disgusting and horrid. I cannot believe a loving God could allow this after he sacrificed his own son to save you 'Christians'. And this is not just to Christians. This is to every organized religion that goes out of its way of spreading goodness and light to spreading hatred and death. Why strive to end the lives of those who could be great?
President Gerald Ford might have died in 1975 because a gay, former marine, Oliver "Bill" Sipple would not have been alive to push away the gun of an assassin in San Francisco.
The United States, Britain, and the other Allies might have lost World War II because Alan Turing, a gay British mathematician, would never have been born. Turing broke one of the Nazis' most important codes to help shorten the war.
African-Americans might have struggled longer before receiving civil rights because there would have been no Bayard Rustin, the gay man who organized the 1963 March on Washington. This the march where Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., made his famous "I Have a Dream" speech.
Do you see there? That is what we could have lost. How much more do you want to destroy? Because if you take away something as simple as the right to live then you might as well place every African American back in shackles, force every woman into the house and keep her there. You might as well kill yourself because we'd just be going back to the disgusting times that people lived through in the Bible, a time that we have strived for thousands of years to get past.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Why isn't there a place for me to go?
I'm so damn tired. Not that I haven't slept. No, I'm just very tired. I had another dream. I can't believe I had another dream about her. It was completely unprovoked!
It was a...nice dream. I almost believed it was real. I really did, that's probably the worst part. That my subconscious could make me feel happy to be with someone who pushed me away before I had a chance to fix myself. Whatever. I know I'm not obsessed now, not consciously...but I do know she's affecting me, in little ways now. Better than it was in the beginning, so I am getting better.
One day I will contact her, and tell her to her face just how shitty she's made me feel, then apologize because itw asn't her fault, that it was mine. Then I'll walk away because I wouldn't want to see her again lest I let her presence reduce me to a squirming mass of brainless stupidity.
It was a...nice dream. I almost believed it was real. I really did, that's probably the worst part. That my subconscious could make me feel happy to be with someone who pushed me away before I had a chance to fix myself. Whatever. I know I'm not obsessed now, not consciously...but I do know she's affecting me, in little ways now. Better than it was in the beginning, so I am getting better.
One day I will contact her, and tell her to her face just how shitty she's made me feel, then apologize because itw asn't her fault, that it was mine. Then I'll walk away because I wouldn't want to see her again lest I let her presence reduce me to a squirming mass of brainless stupidity.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
I can't see my own computer screen
My glasses broke on Monday! This is not fabulous as I require them to see. At the moment I am at least a foot away from my laptop screen and can barely read the words. So I apologize now for any misspellings that might run rampant through this post.
I had about...2..maybe 3 hours sleep last night. I have an exam today for my first class at 9AM...not going to be fun. I have an assignment due later in the day at around 2pm that I have not done, nor have I actually started on it just yet...Well i have, but I lost the original copy a while back so need to start fresh...how fabulous for me...
In other news I still have yet to procure a job seeing as every other company in the area is seeking to employ my drug dealing acquaintances, of which I hate because they have drugs for their habit but I have no job to save my dog who is very ill with heart-worms. And they say we're in a recession...drug-heads don't know the meaning!
I am extremely tired and, once given the chance, shall eventually pass out from exhaustion in the middle of the sidewalk somewhere on campus and simply not move. I will, in fact, be sleeping...really and truly, asleep. So if I have any classmates at UTB/TSC, I'd like you to say hi to me if you see me on the ground someplace, asleep. ALso, make sure I have all my things and that some cruel person hasn't stolen my backpack.
Love lots
Lynn
I had about...2..maybe 3 hours sleep last night. I have an exam today for my first class at 9AM...not going to be fun. I have an assignment due later in the day at around 2pm that I have not done, nor have I actually started on it just yet...Well i have, but I lost the original copy a while back so need to start fresh...how fabulous for me...
In other news I still have yet to procure a job seeing as every other company in the area is seeking to employ my drug dealing acquaintances, of which I hate because they have drugs for their habit but I have no job to save my dog who is very ill with heart-worms. And they say we're in a recession...drug-heads don't know the meaning!
I am extremely tired and, once given the chance, shall eventually pass out from exhaustion in the middle of the sidewalk somewhere on campus and simply not move. I will, in fact, be sleeping...really and truly, asleep. So if I have any classmates at UTB/TSC, I'd like you to say hi to me if you see me on the ground someplace, asleep. ALso, make sure I have all my things and that some cruel person hasn't stolen my backpack.
Love lots
Lynn
Monday, November 9, 2009
I've Been Denied All The Best Ultra Sex
Why is being a lesbian so hard? I mean, I have no trouble talking to girls, smooth talking, being sexy, etc. ANd yet I'm left being single.
The kicker is that I have come close to some good relationships, but in the end they are basically telling me "i like you...but I'm gonna go date this person, okay?" So I just nod, give them the Big Al and Charlie One Finger Salute and be on my way.
I don't mind being just friends with people, but I think it's time I got a date or something!
I'm 18 years old, been out of the closet for...4-5 years? I've been in about 10 relationships or so and all of them have been online!
Recently I dabbled in being a heterosexual and I can tell you it was a disgusting experience I shall never try again. Ever.
Guys+Me=Ew.
Why would I experiment? Because I'm effin' horny!
BUt being horny is not my only reason for wanting a girlfriend.
I need someone who can keep me in line, deal with me when I'm quirky and help me be a better person. In return I can be loving, faithful and just a cute puppy :D
I am capable of love, but in the begginning of a relationship, if I don't watch myself, I could already be looking ten years from then and wonder "what will our kids look like?" And that freaks me out as well as my partner.
However, if I watch myself carefully I can keep from having thoughts that might ruin what could otherwise be a great relationship with someone I deeply care about and can grow to truly and madly love.
Also, where are the gay guys!? Then again I'm probably too dykey for gay guys, half the ones I know have fressa girlfriends or just the usual girl, the ones who wear make up and dresses.
Me? I want a butch fag to hang out with, the kind that can help me work out and be as big a butch as him without the body hair.
BEAR'S FOR LIFE!
The kicker is that I have come close to some good relationships, but in the end they are basically telling me "i like you...but I'm gonna go date this person, okay?" So I just nod, give them the Big Al and Charlie One Finger Salute and be on my way.
I don't mind being just friends with people, but I think it's time I got a date or something!
I'm 18 years old, been out of the closet for...4-5 years? I've been in about 10 relationships or so and all of them have been online!
Recently I dabbled in being a heterosexual and I can tell you it was a disgusting experience I shall never try again. Ever.
Guys+Me=Ew.
Why would I experiment? Because I'm effin' horny!
BUt being horny is not my only reason for wanting a girlfriend.
I need someone who can keep me in line, deal with me when I'm quirky and help me be a better person. In return I can be loving, faithful and just a cute puppy :D
I am capable of love, but in the begginning of a relationship, if I don't watch myself, I could already be looking ten years from then and wonder "what will our kids look like?" And that freaks me out as well as my partner.
However, if I watch myself carefully I can keep from having thoughts that might ruin what could otherwise be a great relationship with someone I deeply care about and can grow to truly and madly love.
Also, where are the gay guys!? Then again I'm probably too dykey for gay guys, half the ones I know have fressa girlfriends or just the usual girl, the ones who wear make up and dresses.
Me? I want a butch fag to hang out with, the kind that can help me work out and be as big a butch as him without the body hair.
BEAR'S FOR LIFE!
Saturday, November 7, 2009
I do not hate you...I'm just VERY disappointed.
I'd like to make a point.
I have never had anything against God, nor Jesus, nor the bible as a historical tome.
I have felt heart ache, love, and everything in between.
I'd like to understand why, if Jesus wanted to promote love, and acceptance, you, and others like you, choose to be such...fools?
Jesus was killed by people like you, good 'christians' of their time. They worshiped God, only God, and saw this man as evil, as against everything they stood for.
He was murdered in cold blood, but he did not hold malice towards you, not at all, no.
I understand his feelings. Now, you have to understand as well.
Countless people are killed through hate crimes. Black, mexican, middle eastern, etc. They've done nothing to you. All they've done is exist.
The bible promotes slavery, promotes the humiliation of women. Sex is not a sin, it is a natural occurence between a man and woman. What really makes sex bad is the stupidity of adults and young people who can't put on a condom correctly.
Half the media like 'christian' Disney Channel, a once fabulous television channel that I loved to watch growing up, is now full of more sex than MTV and it makes me sick.
You want to protect the world? Do not hate Jesus, do not hate homosexuals, do not say 'no you can't' because that'll make everyone just go 'yes i can' and they WILL do it, people are that stubborn, and no one is as 'wise'(stupid) as you are.
Homosexuality s not a sin, "a man must not lay with a man, like with a woman' is open to interpretation. Many things in the bible have been studied and restudied, and everything in it is wrong. Events may have happened, but are they the truth?
An example:
The bible went through countless versions, each one being approved or denied by the King of that time, a bigoted, hateful king, who wanted HIS views protrayed, not that of a good christian.
The bible SAYS nothing, it READS what it READS, but the bible does not speak anymore, it is simply a fragile little base that, when a lot of weight is placed upon it, shall crumble and take you with it.
Become a good christian and love everyone, male or female, black or white, gay or straight. Jesus would, do not deny that Jesus wouldn't because you might as well be spitting in his face.
PS: I'd love to carry on a debate, really and truly. Also, I hope God curses you for your promotion of hatred and bigotry.
I have never had anything against God, nor Jesus, nor the bible as a historical tome.
I have felt heart ache, love, and everything in between.
I'd like to understand why, if Jesus wanted to promote love, and acceptance, you, and others like you, choose to be such...fools?
Jesus was killed by people like you, good 'christians' of their time. They worshiped God, only God, and saw this man as evil, as against everything they stood for.
He was murdered in cold blood, but he did not hold malice towards you, not at all, no.
I understand his feelings. Now, you have to understand as well.
Countless people are killed through hate crimes. Black, mexican, middle eastern, etc. They've done nothing to you. All they've done is exist.
The bible promotes slavery, promotes the humiliation of women. Sex is not a sin, it is a natural occurence between a man and woman. What really makes sex bad is the stupidity of adults and young people who can't put on a condom correctly.
Half the media like 'christian' Disney Channel, a once fabulous television channel that I loved to watch growing up, is now full of more sex than MTV and it makes me sick.
You want to protect the world? Do not hate Jesus, do not hate homosexuals, do not say 'no you can't' because that'll make everyone just go 'yes i can' and they WILL do it, people are that stubborn, and no one is as 'wise'(stupid) as you are.
Homosexuality s not a sin, "a man must not lay with a man, like with a woman' is open to interpretation. Many things in the bible have been studied and restudied, and everything in it is wrong. Events may have happened, but are they the truth?
An example:
The bible went through countless versions, each one being approved or denied by the King of that time, a bigoted, hateful king, who wanted HIS views protrayed, not that of a good christian.
The bible SAYS nothing, it READS what it READS, but the bible does not speak anymore, it is simply a fragile little base that, when a lot of weight is placed upon it, shall crumble and take you with it.
Become a good christian and love everyone, male or female, black or white, gay or straight. Jesus would, do not deny that Jesus wouldn't because you might as well be spitting in his face.
PS: I'd love to carry on a debate, really and truly. Also, I hope God curses you for your promotion of hatred and bigotry.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Get out of my head!
I had yet another dream, it was odd, interesting, but fun, in a disturbing sort of way. Don't ask me what this dream is about, because I've blocked it out already because of someone who made an appearance in it. For those who read my myspace blogs you know who I'm talking about -.-
Frankly I'm done with this, I've grown up, either I get amnesia and forget her completely or she comes back and eases my mind into such a state where she isn't in there so often.
I notice I think about the friends that have gone more than the friends that are here only because they hurt me the moment they were gone, and I wish for their company because I'm a sick fuck. In the past week something happened and I wanted to tell her about it!
I am not obsessed, this happens often when I lose someone on accident or they leave me. Sometimes I can wait, sometimes I'm tortured bymemories, and right now I hate her for doing what she did because now she's in my head.
I'm going to go crazy! >.<
I never loved her! She was an ethereal sex object, though I did enjoy her company, she was a sweet girl. It was my libido that loved her, not my heart and I'd like to make up for past transgressions.
She won't, however, contact ME, why? because she cut off all ties with me and I will be damned if I try and call or write her through e-mail because, well...I could get in trouble considering she's a minor and I'm 18, she might get the wrong idea before I even get a word in edge wise and ruin my life.
I want to at least explain myself, a little closure, not that bullshit letter I sent her immediately after blocking me on every possible Instant message program -.-
What are your ideas?
Frankly I'm done with this, I've grown up, either I get amnesia and forget her completely or she comes back and eases my mind into such a state where she isn't in there so often.
I notice I think about the friends that have gone more than the friends that are here only because they hurt me the moment they were gone, and I wish for their company because I'm a sick fuck. In the past week something happened and I wanted to tell her about it!
I am not obsessed, this happens often when I lose someone on accident or they leave me. Sometimes I can wait, sometimes I'm tortured bymemories, and right now I hate her for doing what she did because now she's in my head.
I'm going to go crazy! >.<
I never loved her! She was an ethereal sex object, though I did enjoy her company, she was a sweet girl. It was my libido that loved her, not my heart and I'd like to make up for past transgressions.
She won't, however, contact ME, why? because she cut off all ties with me and I will be damned if I try and call or write her through e-mail because, well...I could get in trouble considering she's a minor and I'm 18, she might get the wrong idea before I even get a word in edge wise and ruin my life.
I want to at least explain myself, a little closure, not that bullshit letter I sent her immediately after blocking me on every possible Instant message program -.-
What are your ideas?
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